I, THE YOUNGEST SISTER FACES MY FATE
CHAPTER I
All of us three sisters happened to have broken up with our boyfriends. Although, none of us seemed to have any interest in finding a new boyfriend, because we didn’t want to go through it all, again, and weren’t over all the heartache, which we have suffered. Since, we all have ditched their boyfriends, the two older sisters in the batch, Betsy and Kathy, thought that I, the youngest sister, has suffered the most heartache. And this was so true, because I, not long ago, have broken with my last boyfriend.
So, Betsy and Kathy figured that since, I, not more than a couple of months ago, have lost a boyfriend. That he, really has done more than his share to break my heart with an arrow, which has pierced me all the way through my heart. I, really, needed and deserved more than the other sisters, to get away from it all to help heal me inside. I needed to get all this heartache; I have suffered in my life, pushed back into my past, which heartache has turned my heart into a wallflower.
Betsy and Kathy both agreed that the family cottage in the tow of Bedford would be the perfect place for a getaway for me. Both of them were able to talk me into going over for a good stay at the family cottage for an indefinite time. I figured that my two other sisters were, only, trying to be considerate to me.
They were doing their best to try and help me out with all these problems, I’ve been facing, since, I broke up with my last boyfriend. He had even gone as far as to propose to marry me, which had been about `eight years ago. This was when he tried to make a Cinderella out of me, hoping I would have found my lost slipper to make a beauty out of me
On one sunny day, as I happened to arrive over at the family cottage, I figured my heart was, still, like a wallflower being closed to any other boyfriends.
The family cottage, a real heirloom to the whole family, had been redone jus before it had been used many years ago, which years. couldn’t even be counted. In it, being wallpapered in the inside, the cottage appeared so inviting to me with all the bamboo furniture along with all the beautiful décor of wallpaper borders of red and blue flowers in every room.
The place has been furnished for countless years with the same Oakwood tables in the dining room and kitchen area. The family cottage even, still, has the same yellow daybeds with blue flowers on them along with the beige lazy boy chairs in the living room area. It, also, has the original brown and white Formica counters in the kitchen area. All are accented by the tan colored walls in every room.
I jus happened to walking into one of the two bedrooms, which both held double beds with yellow and brown quilts, covering them, which beds, also, were made of oak wood.
What’s been on my mind, this morning, since, I jus happened to be a reporter for the Bedford Daily News? I was aiming on getting some new and different story in the news, which could include pictures of the family cottage.
This story has jus come to my mind, and was jus starting to brew up like some hot tea inside my brain. The main thing, I wanted to aim towards was an article, on how this family cottage belonging to us three sisters, has turned into an ancient heirloom. Also, this cottage has been the perfect getaway for us for so many years, and will remain this way for, probably, many years to come.
As I jus happened to want to plop down on a bed inside the bedroom, which I had jus entered, what seemed to creep up in my mind like a creepy crawler, wasn’t the pleasant of all memories. What I didn’t want to remember, was the many nights, I had spent in my past with my last boyfriend, trying to coax me into making love.
And then, jus when I had thought, I had been falling in love with him; he had left me, so quickly. That I hadn’t known at that time, what had hit me so hard, that it, still, had been feeling, as though, I had this ferocious bump on my head.
This had happened one night, when we had been sleeping inside the bedroom, the very one, which I had jus entered, only, to have found out, the very next morning, he had taken off on me, leaving me like a ferocious trouper in the night. And in having taken off on me, that one time, he had left me with a heart, which had felt, back then, like it had been cut by a knife.
Even though, I was trying so hard to get through me, all that warmth and comfort, I should be feeling jus in being here at the family cottage. All this warmth and comfort, used to fill me up inside like I was ready to burst, every time, I happened to stop at this cottage. This time, as fast as it came to me, it seemed to have faded away into the darkness.
I plopped myself down on the bed, jus after having placed my keys on a hook inside the bedroom near the oak wood dressing table. As I did, I, suddenly, felt so tired for no reason at all, jus because all of the old feelings, which had taken up so many years of my life, suddenly, burdened me?
These old feelings centered around that time, I had landed my last boyfriend, who, really, back a couple of months ago, had, really, captured my heart in rapture like knight in the night. All these memories, suddenly, seemed to have come back to me, although, I was trying hard to push all these feelings into the back crevice of my mind.
This certain boyfriend, certainly, had created so many bad feelings inside of me. Jus in having entered this family cottage, seemingly, has brought them back into my mind, so strongly. That they, almost, compelled me into leaving the cottage, and to be forced to fly like the wind into the night, back home, again.
However, I wasn’t about to allow these feelings to keep me from having a good stay at the family cottage. I was determined to keep up a fight like a knight in shining armor against all of this heartache, which has come back to me, until I have managed to push all of this into the back of my mind with prowess of a lion. One thing, I planned on doing, was not to allow any guy, I might happen to bump into while on my job as a reporter or even around this cottage or otherwise, to ever capture my heart with rapture, ever again.
However, little did I know, that the boyfriend, who had turned into my husband about eight years ago, jus might, still, be following me around sticking me like a pin, trying to get me to marry him, again.
BACKFLASH:
Back when I, once, had met Mike, about eight years ago, I, really, had been fooled by him, into thinking he had been the perfect guy for me. Back then, he used to spy on me like a detective being up to no good, over at some bar, I used to hang out at, so many times. With each and every time, he had bumped into me, he had managed to make me, keep falling for him.
However, he, really, had gone to extremes, back then, in every way, he could have, possibly, thought of, to flirt with me with an evil eye, and to keep me, hanging onto him by the edge of darkness. He had done all this jus to make me, believe; he had been falling in love with me. When all this time, I had known him, he, simply, had done all this flirting like a spy in the night, jus to make sure. No other guy would be able to steal me away from him.
Back then, he, actually, had succeeded in making a fool out of me, and had made me, think, he had been the compatible type. This had been jus because he, always, had made me, think, he had, always, gone out of his way to show all this love for me. All this he had pulled on me, had, really, fooled me, because all he had done was to keep playing cupid with me. This immense flirting of his had done its job, to have gotten me to fall in love with him, although, he, really, never had loved me, the way, I had loved him.
Years ago, he, really, had convinced me through all this immense love playing like a spy in the night. That he had engaged in all this love playing like a cupid, which had convinced me, that he was my type of guy, when down-to-earth, all this time, he jus had been pulling my leg.
And he had done all this jus to stop me from being stolen by any other guy for eight years. And this was why; he had managed to get me to hang onto him, while keeping me on the edge of darkness, for all these years, in which we had, somehow, stayed, together, a real mystery.
This relationship, I had had with him all this time, had turned out to be a real mystery, jus because all love, he had claimed he had for me, all had been done through love play. All this time, he had played cupid through putting an arrow through my heart. So, in him, having engaged in love play, all these years, had convinced me to have hung onto him, keeping me on the edge of my world, This had been so much for me, that I had fallen, madly, in love with him.
When I had realized, that he hadn’t been the type for me, I hadn’t been able to let go of him until he, actually, had run away from me like a thief in the night, jus after he had gotten me, pregnant. He had left me, causing me to have to bring up a child on my own, or go through with having an abortion, which ever I had chosen to do.
What had caused all these memories of this guy to come back to me, and haunt me in different ways, was that jus because he had talked me into making love with him like a thief in the night. He had given me, a false hope, in telling me jus after getting married, that he hoped to make babies with me. This was another thing that he had given a false wish about like a fairy, causing me to, at one time, to have fallen, madly, in love with him.
Back then, eight years ago, he, really, had hooked me like a fast catch in the sea. He had accomplished this through getting me to make to love with him, without me, realizing he was the fly like the wind, type of guy. I had taken him up on a false promise, which had fooled me in every way, jus because I hadn’t known he had been faking this promise.
Also, he had made me; think making love had been the right thing to do. Back then, he had made me, thinks, he was the marrying type, and had fooled me into thinking that he was going to make a proposal to me when the time was right. However, this had turned out to be a proposal, which has ruined me, inside, because he had taken off from me, in flying off like the wind.
Through his bewitching personality, he had hooked me like a fish in the sea in a certain way. That he had gotten me to fall in love with him to my expense. However, later on, through some ESP, I had been able to sense, he had been acting like a witch, which to me, like he had been placing a spell on her all these years. All these eight years, to me, we had seemed to have a good relationship, together, which, really, hadn’t turned out that way in the long run.
Back then, he had made me, think he had loved me so much like a spy in the night; he had wanted to marry me. But the promise, he had made to care for and to give me, babies, turned into one big white lie in the long run. Little had I known he had gone as far as to get me to believe that fast marriage had been jus what we had needed for a good relationship?
However, with us, having lived, together, and having slept, together, many times before marriage, he, only, had accomplished to have gotten me, tied by the strings and hanging onto him by a thread on the edge of darkness.
In having gotten me to have clung onto him, there ended up being no way for me to let go of him, until he had gone so far as to have dumped me after he had gotten me to the point. That I had sunk into the sea into a state of shock, when I had found out I was with baby.
But, once, I had been hooked on him, I had thought, me and him were compatible. Once he had gotten me tied to him like purse strings, there had been no way for me to be able to let go of him.
The next thing, I had found out, back then, he had talked me into marrying him like a spy in the night, jus because he had given me, the false impression that we both had been in true love. And this false impression had fallen on me as a result of all this love playing; he had done through all these eight years.
After I had married him, things had gone into the wrong direction. One thing, he had made sure, he wouldn’t do, any more than occasionally, was to make love to me in a loving way. Instead of waiting until I would get into the mood for making love, instead, he had ended up forcing it on me. He had demanded any session of making love from me, whether I would be in the mood of making love or not.
When I hadn’t want to make love to him, he would go to extremes in our relationship, and tie me down to the bed along with putting my legs in shackles, what I,, really, always, had despised from him. So, when he had wanted to make love, I never would dare, not even once, to refuse to make love with him.
It had come to the point, back then, where I hadn’t enjoyed making love with him at all. And by then, I had started to have the feeling inside. That he had been trying to make me, smother to death, jus to hope. That I would start showing whatever love, I had for him, because he had come to believe, that I hadn’t loved him, anymore, after having been, together, for all these eight years.
I had been shocked inside, the time, I had found out I had been knocked up with his baby. And he hadn’t wanted to accept the fact. That I had been carrying his baby, jus because behind my back, he had been seeing this other woman, whom, back then, he had thought, had been supposed to be pregnant with her baby, instead of me.
Upon having found out, that I had been carrying his baby, he had gone so far as to take off with this other woman in flying away with the wind. He had kept me, hanging by a thread to him, yet, because I, still, had been, madly, in love with him, which had caused me, much heartache after all these years of having been in a relationship with him for eight years. And he hadn’t even wanted to be a father of my baby.
Then, because I hadn’t been able to handle bringing up the baby, alone, I had been forced into getting an abortion, jus so that the baby wouldn’t be forced to be brought up without a father.
One thing, he had kept up his sleeve, had been that he never had wanted to get me, knocked up in the first place. This had been jus because he hadn’t even ever wanted me to have any babies by him, because he wouldn’t have done his share in being a father to my baby. And if I had brought up the baby on my own, I would have suffered much guilt over doing so, jus because its mother never would have offered the baby, any love.
After this abortion, I had been hurting, so badly, like a knife had pierced my heart. That I had thought I never was going to have another boyfriend, ever, in my life. My last boyfriend had jus wanted to knock me up and leave me for this other woman, which I had never found out about, jus because her last guy, always, had kept this a big nasty secret.
And every time, he hadn’t been home for a night, he had jus told me, one big white lie. This big lie had been that he had never been involved with another woman, and that the woman, he had been seeing had been jus a distant sister of his.
Not long ago, after I had fallen into that boyfriend trap, again, I had thought, this time, that the guy had, actually fallen in love with me. However, when he, finally, had realized, that I had fallen in love with him, I had been left with a broken heart, again, jus because this one guy, also, had taken off with another woman.
He had found out that I had loved him, jus through having sensed this about me. He had left me, jus because he never had wanted my love. And he hadn’t, really, ever loved me in the first place, in having for a few months, been having up his sleeve, this big white lie.
And this big lie had been that he never had loved me, although, he had always acted, as though, he had fallen in love with me at first sight. After he had left me, only then, had I realized that I had never loved him to begin with.
Being I had a job as a reporter, I decided I was going to stay, indefinitely, at the family cottage. I was jus hoping that in keeping my mind, occupied with doing a story for the Bedford News would help me push into the back of my mind, all the bad memories. These memories included all the ones, I have been having about my past boyfriend and husband, and all the hurt, and they have caused me in breaking my heart into pieces.
In my story for Bedford News, I wanted to include an interview with my two sisters. And how they have been killing time in having a family cottage to get away to, especially, during the good, old summertime, when I and my two sisters, usually, don’t have to worry about taking time off for vacations at the family cottage. This is true, although, the youngest sister, me, has my year-round job as a reporter. However, I can take off a few weeks for a vacation, whenever I feel like doing so.
Since, during a recent phone call from both of my sisters, they jus found out from me. I wanted both of them to help me out in some small way in doing some stories for the Bedford News.
I wanted both of my sisters to help me out in gathering, together, whatever they could fish up in pictures of some worthwhile events, which have happened in the past over at the family cottage. And I jus agreed with my other sisters to pay them both some money if they did what they could in helping out in finding pictures, also, of the family cottage.
However, since, the other two sisters, not long ago, both lost their jobs as staff over at a clubhouse in Bedford, they both have, also, been reporters for the Bedford News. So, I happened to find out, I was going to be paid extra by my boss for this one story, which gave me, even more satisfaction.
This meant that, since, my other sisters have become jealous over this deal that they both were going to help me out, only, with this story. So, along with coming up with old pictures, which could be used for this special story about the family cottage, I was going to include my own views of the cottage.
Also, I planned to include in the local paper, how it has turned into jus the perfect getaway, recently, and some of my past after the time, I had broken up with my boyfriend. And in having started on this story, actually, as I jus arrived over at the place, is helping me, being able to start to push back into my past, all old memories of my past boyfriend and also, my ex-husband.
One day, when I appeared as usual at the Bedford News building in the early morning, I went through the daily gathering with my assistants, not including my sisters, this time. In my boss, Patricia Redneck, having a good talk with me about my new story, which I have jus come up with, jus in her, approving of me, doing this story about the family cottage has seemed to make a turn on the other side of the boat.
I, originally, thought that in doing this story was going to make the grass greener on the other side of the pasture.
I haven’t planned to make this happen to me. But who jus happened to show up over at the Bedford News building, and really, gave me, the shock of my life, was my ex-husband, Mike.
And he, really, has been the very guy, whom I had known for more than eight years, and had caused me, many years of heartache, which heartache, really, had torn my heart apart into pieces. And these pieces, I never have ever been able to put back, together. And I had, also, made the mistake of having had a boyfriend, whom, also, has pierced my heart like a knife.
I didn’t know jus how my ex-husband managed to find out, that I would be, there, right over at the news building, that morning. And he caught me like a fish in the sea, while I had gone real deep into the water, trying to stir up ideas for new stories for the newspaper, especially, the one about the family cottage.
I jus happened to be sitting in one of the rooms with my boss, as I happened to be sitting on a very comfortable black leather couch along with her, ready to discuss the story, I, recently, has dreamed up concerning the family cottage. So, at first, I jus tried to act like I hadn’t received any message that my ex-husband has showed up right there at the news building.
I wasn’t about to get up from the couch. However, I wanted to find out jus how he happened to catch me, there, considering me, a good fish in the sea. So, at first, he thought I was jus playing chicken with him, because I didn’t want to come face to face with him.
However, I was telling my boss about my new idea about the family cottage for a new story for the daily newspaper, The Bedford Daily. My ex-husband, really, had the guts to show up right in front of the door to the room, where I and my boss were trying to get into discussing my story. This story has been brewing up inside my head.
There was some anger, showing in my boss’s face, because she knew, this guy must have been my ex-husband. And that we two have been through some really grueling divorce.
So, I was the first one to speak, also, with boiling up with anger inside, “What in the world, do you think you‘re doing, here, at the news building, may I ask? And how in the world, did you know, that I have been a reporter for the daily news, now? C’mon tell me what you want with me?”
Since, he jus stood, there, like he was acting, like I wasn’t alive, I, then, continued, “I jus happened to be trying to tell my boss, here, about a new idea. And this idea jus happened to be staying, firmly, planted in my mind ready to be sowed, since, this morning, when I jus happened to try to get my sisters, involved in the story.”
I had to stop talking for a minute, to get my breath. Then, I proceeded, still, somewhat perturbed at him,” And here, I get hit in the head jus because they both jus happened not to have any job of their own. And instead of taking care of their assignment, I had given them, of helping me out with my new story, instead, both of them have told me something else.”
This time, I had to pause a moment to get my composure back, “That there’s no way, either of them can find the time, this summer, to help me out in getting this new story moving forward. Now, hurry up and tell me jus why you had to show up over at this building. So, I can get going on my new story for the daily news.”
“In the first place, jus how come you seem so surprised to see me, again, after all these years. After all, after that time, during which you agreed to marry me, and give me, some children. That time jus after you had found out, you were with baby, you had blamed me for leaving you, jus because you had thought, you loved me enough at that time, to want me as the baby’s father.”
Once again, I had to pause to get myself, together, “Now, jus because I’ve shown up over at the news building... And I have known down deep inside, that you, always, were the one, all these years, who wanted to get knocked up. And that because you had agreed back then, to get married, right away, instead of waiting until you were sure we were in true love, don’t blame me for having left you, back then.”
This time, I had to get control of my anger, boiling inside of me,” You were the one, who wanted babies, right away, instead of waiting to see if our marriage was going to stay stable. And even though, back then, you had known darn well, that the two of us have never seemed too compatible with each other, back then.”
“What you have told me, jus now, is one big white lie. You were the one, who had forced me into marrying you, even when I knew, that at that time, I, really, wasn’t ready to settle down with you. Though, we, already, had known each other like the book for eight years. And another thing was that the two of us jus were too young, back then, to get married. And that neither of us even was grown up enough for our marriage to last even for a year’s time.”
Finally, my boss spoke up, and she, really, put him in his place, “Now, whoever you are, you’d better jus get out of this building, before I go ahead and call security to park you out of here, buddy. She and I were jus getting ready to get into business, jus when you came walking out of your own free will right into this office of mine. So, if you don’t want to end up in jail for resisting security, you jus better leave, right now. I’m so mad at you, that I don’t care if you get sent to the other end of the world, where you jus might end up struggling for your survival.”
So, without another word from any of us, he jus ran as fast as his feet could carry him jus like a road runner, running after its prey. And in no time at all, he was out of the building, before any of the security could force him out of the building against his free will. This happened because my boss had said something to him, which he didn’t like at all.
The last thing, he wanted to happen to him, was for him to end up in jail, over him, jus have been trying to make some sense out of all of those years, in which he and I had been, together. All these years we had, together, in the past, happened to have been the last time of his life, he wanted to have tossed away like some unused news.
Now, that I, finally, have received word, that he has left the building, I and my boss went ahead, and tried to make a good attempt at getting some business tied to her new story, taken care of. So, that morning, I, finally, could make some headway to do with her my story, which I had in mind.
So, first of all, I gave my opinion to my boss, of what I had in mind for a good and moving news story. I said in an eager voice to my boss, who was trying her best to try and stay patient with me, after that incident, which had occurred with my ex-husband right inside the news building, this morning.
“What I happen to have in mind. I think would be an interesting story, which really would makes news in the paper, this morning or even tomorrow. I, originally, had come up with the idea of getting a story, partly, with an interview with my two sisters.”
I stopped talking for a minute or so, jus because she laughed for no reason at all. “However, upon talking to both of them, this morning, I thought I was going to be able to get some input from the two of them about the family cottage. And how it has been like a family heirloom to all of us for years. I even am going to try to include some homey pictures of the cottage, itself, especially, the inside of it for its bamboo furniture.”
My boss responded to me, “What I think, really, would make the headlines even better, is a story or report surrounding the incident, which happened, right here, in the news building. And I would like you to include something about your ex-husband, if you don’t mind, like what the two you happened to bring up, here, while we were jus about to get into what I wanted you to write about, this morning.”
“If you, really, think this kind of story, is going to make the headlines, this morning or even for tomorrow, would become a really moving story. Jus because when I had met my ex-husband about eight years ago, what has gone on inside the family cottage, not really personal stuff, would, certainly, cause me to turn into a real celebrity. However, what I don’t know is how my ex-husband would take to this sort of thing being in the newspaper. As long as this story doesn’t turn up dangling like a rope, hanging from the mountains, which I don’t think it will, because I’m the one, who’ll be controlling what material goes into this story. That I’ll jus be happy to go along with it.”
“For one thing, you, definitely, should include as many photographs of the family cottage, including some old photos of family events like on the lake, as you think will be enough to make the story. Did you want to take pictures, yourself, or do you want me to assign a photographer from this building to you?”
“What I’d rather do is to have that part, taken by me, because after all, I’ve, lately, managed to find an old video camera around the family cottage. And then, again, I’d get better footage that way for the newspaper, and maybe, for the Evening Post.”
“Okay, since, you have my approval on this sort of story. You must get this story moving, right away, if you want the story to make the headlines of the paper by tomorrow morning.”
CHAPTER II
I, quickly, got up from the couch. And in no time at all, it seemed, like I was flying like a bird out the doors of the news building. And I, really, ran as fast as my feet could carry me over to where my sharp red PT cruiser was at.
As soon as I reached my car, I hopped into the driver’s seat, and was on my way back to the family cottage. However, jus as I was taking off for the family cottage all this rain, suddenly seemed to come from nowhere, and soon it was raining cats and dogs outside.
However, by the time, I arrived over at the family cottage, a treasured heirloom to me and my sisters; I was surprised to find another car, a blue Corvette, which, I recognized, right away, as being my ex- husband’s car. And I hadn’t the slightest idea, of why he would be over at the family cottage at this time of day. But I figured as I walked inside the cottage, he was, probably, going to try to ask me forgiveness, for showing up over at the news building at such a bad time, before.
As I was very disappointed at him, having showed up at the family cottage, without even asking me, if he could come over to the cottage, I seemed to be boiling up inside with anger. Though, I was ready to punch him in the face, for pulling something like this. But I decided that it would only make matters worse between me and my ex-husband, Mike if I dared to blow a fuse through firing anger at him.
So, I jus stood, there, by my car, jus after she pulled into the stony driveway, trying my best to allow my anger to steam out like a steam engine. And a few minutes later, after having pulled myself, together, I tried to go about my way, casually, as I walked into the cottage, and literally, threw my bright red parka down on one of the kitchen chairs.
I, certainly, didn’t seem to be able to spot him inside the cottage, right away, until I started walking into the living room. And upon doing so, I jus happened to catch him, taking a relaxing nap on one of the couch day beds.
At first, I jus didn’t like him, making himself at home inside the `family cottage. But upon me, walking up to him, and plopping on the other end of the couch bed, this jus happened to stir him awake. At first, he had a very surprised look on his face, in seeing me, sitting, right there, on the day bed.
However, being I was a bit angry at him, for him, trying to follow me around wherever I happened to go, with a perplexing expression on my face, I said to him as he sat up in the day bed.
“What in the world, do you think you’re doing here, at the cottage? You should know better than to sneak into family cottage, when none of my sisters or I happened to be around the place. You’d better have a good explanation to being here, because I didn’t invite you, here. And what did you do, did you by chance, somehow, use a crowbar to get inside this place?”
“No, I didn’t use exaggerated moves to get inside this cottage. In fact, jus before you showed up, here, jus now, it jus happens to be that one of your sisters, Betsy, I had happened to have talked to jus before coming over here. She had been nice enough to make a deal with me. One that would be a paying job for me. Since, she thought that this cottage needed some fixing up, outside, on the outside of the cottage along with replacing some shingles. Also, the cottage needs a lot of work done outside on the deck.”
Upon catching his breath, he continued, “She wanted me to go ahead, and renovate this place through putting up a new deck in the back, because the whole deck needs to be replaced, very badly. This is because she happened to have told me, that the last time, any stain has been put on the front porch that it didn’t even stick to the wood. So, that means the back porch needs replacing along with some aluminum siding or jus a new wood finish on the outside.”
I was very shocked, that he was going to be around me, probably, for a very long time, because if he stayed around during the day, to fix up the cottage. Then, I knew I would become very attached to him, again. And I, definitely, was having some old feelings for him, creeping up inside me.
And there was nothing, I could do about this, because my sister, Betsy, was the one, who had offered him, the job. So, I got the impression, through knocking on wood that he was trying to get me back together with him, again. But that was the very last thing; I wanted to happen between them.
So, in not knowing what to do about this situation, I was going to be scarce and stay away from him during the day and afternoon, while he was working on the cottage. I had to jus hope, that he wouldn’t get the idea, that I wanted to get back together with him, because that happened to be the furthest thing from my mind.
Having a curious look on his face, as I was sitting down on one of the day beds, he said to me, “It’s nice to see you, again, and please don’t get down on me for bumping into you over at the news building before, because I hadn’t intended for us, to bump into each other in the first place.”
“Well, be aware of the fact, that I don’t want to have us, get involved in another relationship, again. And I intend to be away from this cottage as much as I, possibly, while I’m doing my job as a reporter. However, because the boss has talked me into doing a story on you and me of all things, I am going to have to include some past events, we have been in, together.”
My ex-husband, really, was creating all this anger inside me, so then, I continued, “And this, really, is going to take some doing on my part, not to get involved with you, again. However, this could turn out to hard for me to do, being that with you, going to have to spend long hours, here, at the family cottage, doing various repairs.”
“What I’m going to be doing at the cottage, jus happens to have been offered to me by one of your sisters, Betsy, by the way. In the first place, I jus happened to have seen an ad, which she had placed in the local newspaper. And I needed some job, badly, being my job as a construction worker, has been taken away from me, because I had been laid off not long ago.
So, I have taken this one job as an offer from her, being I figured that you wouldn’t mind a bit, if I took on this job. So, you’re going to be seeing plenty of me around the family cottage.”
“Okay, now Mike, don’t think, that I’m going to appreciate you doing this job for me and my sisters, because the last thing, I want to do, is to get hooked on you, again, like wildfire, like I had about eight years ago. And that jus happened to be at a time, when I thought, the two of us were meant for each other. However, I jus happened to find out, it was the other way around the carousel.”
After pausing a minute, to get myself, together, I continued, “In the long run, back then, I found out the hard way, that in getting married as quickly as we had, without giving it, a second thought, has turned out to be the worst thing, I’ve ever gotten myself involved in. So, whatever you do, don’t try to get real friendly or fresh as a cucumber with me, because it jus isn’t going to work. Believe you’ll never be able to get me to have you, again, like I used to be, when we had been going, together, or even married to each other.”
So, then, I went about my own way, taking off out the front door, and like I was flying away with the wind, because I, still, have been feeling uncomfortable when around him. And right now, I jus happened to have better things to take care of, than to worry about if he’s going to try anything to get her to get closer to him, which I know, probably, will never work, anyways.
I didn’t care if he got himself, buried inside in his work around the cottage, which I hoped did happen to him, jus so he would leave me alone and mind his own bees wax.
Upon going outside with my video camera, since, today has turned out to be such a gorgeous day, I jus had to make sure, I got a lot of mother earth on video, and really, captured the beauty of all the woods around the family cottage. I became as snug as a rabbit, upon getting buried in trying to take in all the beauty, which the woods and Mother Nature has to offer. Hopefully, I’ll come across some turkeys or even some deer, coming out of the woods.
But, first, to make sure, I made a leap like a frog to get away from the cottage as far as I could, I walked down all those steps leading down a big hill in back of the cottage. This walk, really, made me, feel like I wanted to make a good getaway in the family speedboat. Since, I, really, have that urge, which seems to be grabbing me to absorb a lot of nature on the speedboat.
Upon me, reaching the bottom of the cemented steps, I proceeded to walk through all that squishy sand on the beach, which seemed like some time to me, while I got some good footage of what was going on in the lake.
I jus happened to get lucky as a four-leaf clover, while doing so, and got some pictures of some guys, skiing on the lake. Also, I was able to capture a small group of girls, next door to the family cottage, going swimming in the shimmering green water, so cold because of the creek, running into the lake, nearby.
So, I jus had to stand, there and be a bit curious, and get some good video of these girls, jumping off a dock.
When I decided, I had enough on camera of what’s going on in and near the lake; I walked towards the woods on the other side of the family cottage. And there, I jus happened to be lucky enough to capture through a video taken of some deer and some turkeys, which deer jus happened to be darting through the edge of the woods.
Jus before going on my boat ride, that morning, I jus happened to have an urge to do some spying on my ex-husband, like if I was some detective on the loose, hungry for some footage on a case, concerning my ex-husband.
So, what I did was to, slowly, walk right up the steps and back onto the back deck. And jus as I was doing so, I was doing some staring right through some windows near the deck. I got a good video of Mike, jus lying on one of the day beds.
And since, it, really, bothered me, that he, probably, was asleep on the job, I, then, walked over to the back door of the cottage. I knocked hard on the door, enough to stir up a mouse out of its hole, to get him to wake up and get moving on his job, which he was supposed to be doing, right now, and should have been doing for, at least, an hour or more.
That hard knocking, which I did, I noticed, really, scared him out of his pants, and caused him to, literally, jump like a leap frog off of the couch, as if something had hit him in the head. And then, making sure, he wouldn’t spot me on the deck or near the back door, I, stealthily, like a spy in the night, ran off of the porch as fast as my feet could carry me. I jus darted down all those steps in back of the family cottage.
However, I was as lucky as a four-leaf clover that he hadn’t caught me, spying on him like a spy in the night; because all I wanted to do was stir him up a bit. I did this, jus so that he would get himself busy as a busy body, working on the front of the cottage. That was where there was plenty of work to be done like fixing the steps, which led up to the cottage amongst other things.
In a flash, I was gone from his sight, as I reached the bottom of the steps, because this time, I, actually, found myself, jumping like a jack rabbit right into the speedboat. And then, I took off on the speedboat, before he had any chance to be able to catch sight of me, being on the speedboat.
He did think he might have heard some noise in the backyard of the family cottage. But he never figured out, not right away, that the noise, he was hearing was the family speedboat, taking off on the lake.
Since, the lake seemed so calm like a purring cat, right now, upon noticing some swamp area not far from land, I stopped the speedboat right in the middle of the lake. And with my video camera, I managed to get some good footage of Mike, as he was standing on the back deck, jus realizing that I must have taken off, somewhere. This was because he was sure, he must have heard the motor of some speedboat, taking off, recently. However, he had no idea, that I had been the one, who did so.
Just after having a lot of view of the family cottage from the backyard along with her ex-husband on the video camera, I, then, realized, I should make a phone call on my cell phone. I had to let her boss know, that I was in the process of getting some very good video for my story, today.
Upon my boss, answering the phone, she said in a gruff voice to me, “I hope you have some good story for me by now, especially, part of it on video, I can use to show the news people, because I want this story, at least, to be done by tomorrow morning. Also, in the story, is going to be that incident, which had occurred this morning, when your ex-husband, suddenly, had appeared inside the news building. Had tried to get you to believe, that he’s been following you for some time.”
I answered in a curious tone of voice, while watching her ex husband, staring, probably, at me in the lake, and during all this time, wondering what in the world, I’ve been up to, instead, of him, doing his job in fixing up the family cottage.
Upon feeling confident, that I have been able to get a hold of him on my cell phone, decided not to tell him, where I’m at or what I’ve been up to, this morning. This was because I wanted that story of mine to go through in the news.
And so, that when he got around to reading the morning paper, tomorrow morning. That hopefully, in, probably, seeing himself in the newspaper would make him aware of the fact that I’ve been trying to expose him to the general public. I jus wanted to be sure to stir him up like a mouse, going after its cheese, and wake him up. I meant it whenever I’ve told him; I didn’t want to have anything to do with him, anymore.
Not only did he want to stay, there, at the family cottage, working long hours, I found out, that he wanted to do this on purpose. And this seemed to stir up all that hurt inside me; he’s caused me from my marriage to him. This was so true, because I had wanted to leave him, anyways, being their past marriage, hadn’t been working out like I had expected.
And then, jus because I had pulled out of our marriage, jus before he had taken off on me, I jus found out, lately, that he, actually, had fallen for another girl, recently. However, he, recently, to my surprise, revealed to me, that he had, actually, married this woman, jus because he had gotten this other woman, knocked up. So, the baby wouldn’t grow up without having any parents.
This he had done jus because his past marriage with me. And then, with him, having been, once, married to me, had gone ahead, and had pulled out of the relationship, leaving me with much hurt. And even more hurt in my heart, had been caused by my latest boyfriend, who had decided to leave me, jus because I had been starting to fall in love with him.
Because my ex-husband, Mike, has started working for me, which brought back all the hurt, he had caused me through leaving me, when he had found out, that I had been knocked up with his baby, didn’t help me any. This was because the main reason, he had left me when we had been married, was because he had fallen for this other woman.
So, on top of all of this, I jus found out, lately, one day, when I had, bumped into him, again, over at the cottage. That this other woman, he used to have in his life, the last one, whom he, also, used to be married to, left her jus after their boy was jus a real young kid.
This happened to this other woman, jus because she didn’t love him like she should have. So, he, then, had, also, left this other woman, and this one boy of his, still, happened to be living with his mother, because Mike never had been able to get custody of him after the separation.
What Mike, really, has up his sleeve, is that he has through getting this one job, has made himself, vulnerable to me, which I didn’t seem to like, jus because I have realized, he has been trying to chase after me, again. This was, although, I has been trying to do my best, not to make myself, available during most of the day and into the evening.
What, really, has been shocking to me, since, he’s been working over at the family cottage, is that I don’t know what to do with myself, jus because I had jus realized, that I, still, loved him, has crept up, on me, all of a sudden.
Another thing, which, really, has been irking me, lately, and he’s not about to give up on me, because he’s realized this, is that no matter, what I has tried to do to avoid him, it has seemed like he has been, actually, man handling me.
This, really, seemed to irk me, whenever he has attempted to do this to me. And no matter, what I have tried, like trying to act like he’s never been around the cottage, it has seemed, like I jus can’t seem to keep him out of mind. It’s been like he’s been haunting me inside. And the more, I’ve tried to ignore him, the more he seemed to come onto me, which I keep despising, because all he’s been doing to me, is acting like he wants to bother me to no end.
Being he won’t stop man handling me, this has caused me to keep loving him. And this love for him has seemed like, ever since, that first day, on which he showed up at the family, cottage, that this love, I’ve got for him jus keeps getting stronger.
For one thing, none of my other sisters seemed to be around the family cottage as much as I’ve been. Being that my ex-husband has been realizing this, he has started to gang up on me, every time, I happened to show up after coming back from my job as a reporter.
He purposely, and forcefully, has been hanging around me, and he has been acting, like he, still, loved me. However, he isn’t caring for his other wife and son like he has been supposed to be doing, and he’s been neglecting his care for his other wife and son.
For one thing, at least, that one story, which I’ve completed about the family cottage and good events, which have occurred at that place, which events have been treasured by me and my other sisters, has, really, made the headlines.
But one story, which Mike has no idea, has been going on with me, is the fact that I has been finding out more facts about his other woman. And in having been able to gather all these facts from rumors, which have been going on about him, I have obtained enough material for another story, which jus might make the headlines.
Since, his mind and heart has been centered so deeply on me, no wonder, he has been neglecting all the care, which his other wife and son should be getting from him. And if he keeps this up, one day, it’s going to happen, that his other wife jus might try to forget about him.
And if she doesn’t, then, she’s jus going to hope that she can keep giving her only won, enough of her love. So that he won’t suffer from having not been getting any love from Mike, anymore.
This is going to be hard for her son to take, because she, originally, had planned to marry Mike, jus so that their baby would be brought up with two parents. However, since, it hasn’t been working out that way, that Mike, only, occasionally, has been seeing his son, that his son, one of these days, probably, will end up growing apart from his dad.
What is this, I’ve jus found out, that although, it’s my love for him, which love has been haunting me, which I’ve been trying to ignore. Now, I find out, he’s been doing something behind my back.
I jus talked to my sisters, lately, and one of them, finally, revealed to me, that he has talked that sister of mine, Betsy, into going to him. What am I going to about it? In fact, she’s been doing this one me when I’m not there at the family cottage during the day. Maybe, I should confront Mike about this situation as it has gotten out of hand.
What he’s been pulling on me during the day, is that he’s been trying to get my sister, Betsy, to go to bed with him, which I haven’t liked him doing to me at all. I don’t think that a phone call to her is going to do much good, because I’ve jus caught her, lying on the day bed with him, lately. And he won’t admit that the two of them have been going to bed, together.
He wants to work on renewing his relationship with me, besides trying to get in some time to visit his son, whenever he, possibly, can. However, being he doesn’t seem to care about his other woman, anymore, the one, whom gave him, a son, she jus doesn’t want him to see him in her life, anymore.
This has caused much distrust. So, that Mike jus doesn’t like it, that his other woman has all this distrust for him. As a result, his son jus isn’t getting the opportunity to see his dad, anymore, when the two should be working on getting a better family relationship.
For one thing, I, still, don’t want any part of Mike, because that every time, I seem to bump into him, he jus doesn’t want to pay any attention to me unless I’m along with him to see his son, which isn’t often. Another thing that has been bugging me to no end is that Mike jus doesn’t want to stop chasing after me like a spy.
This is why I’ve been buried in my job as a reporter, and want to make myself as scarce as possible from the family cottage, each and every day. But I’ve found it impossible to stay away from him during the night over at the cottage.
I’ve realized, what he’s been doing, is trying to win back my love. But I’m going to see to it that this jus doesn’t work out for him at any time. I don’t even care of he wants to visit his son, which son doesn’t belong to me. However, since, I don’t want his company at any time; he can stay over at his other woman’s house for all I care. He doesn’t even care if he never gets to see her, ever again. However, she’s not going to be able to stop him from seeing his son, because he loves him like a dad should, he claims to me.
Mike has been trying to catch me and hook me like a fish in the sea. And I know that he has been trying to work on getting me back into a relationship with him. But I don’t want any part of him, because of all the hurt; he’s caused me in the past. He knows that he’s been getting me to become attracted to his sexy body. But this doesn’t seem to be working out for him, because, though, it makes me, feeling angry inside, I can’t ignore my love for him.
So, what I’m going to have to do is to face my love for him. And hopefully, sometime in the future, we will be able to have all that love for each other besides making love, again, if it all starts going better between us. I know I’ve been acting, as though, he’s not a friend of mine. And I’m going to do all I can to make him pay for all the hurt, he’s caused me through being around at the family cottage, and fixing it up, so, that he can.
Even though, I’ve been getting attracted to his sexy body, I don’t want to admit this to him, that I’ve been attracted to him. All I’m doing is allowing this entire guilt complex to take over my life, which isn’t a good thing. I’m jus fighting his company, whenever I bump into him over at the cottage. I want him to pay for all the hurt; he’s caused me in the past.
I’m going to make him pay, while I’m riding around during my job as a reporter during the day. All I’m doing is trying to get him off of my mind, hoping this will take all the hurt out of me. The worst thing is that he’s still in love with me. At least, he thinks he, still, loves me, when the love is for this other woman in his life. I jus don’t want him to believe that he loves me at all.
He’ll try anything to be a pain in the neck to me, and keep chasing after me to see where this will take him, whether he can convince me to keep him in my life. He chose to go to bed with my sister jus for revenge, and isn’t going to get away with this either. And he got caught by me, doing this to me. So, my sister jus can’t face the truth, anymore, because she’s guilty of stealing my guy from me.
But in the long run, this stealing of Mike by my sister, has jus seemed to be bringing Mike and me closer to each other. So, I’ve developed this big longing for him in my life. When my sister makes me, jealous in going to bed with him, it seems to make me more and more angry at her. This is knocking me silly to the point, that I have developed this big wanting for him in my life to stay, even after he has broken my heart.
I’m finding there’s no way, I can resist him, because the more I try to stay away from him, the more, I’m finding I’m wanting him, physically and all his love for me, if there’s any left in his heart for me. But I keep finding myself, pulling back from him without being aware when this is going on.
I’ve turned so bound up inside with longing for him, that his marriage to this other broad has started to go haywire. But being I’ve become part of his life, again, and have been going places with him and his son, his wife doesn’t seem to like this at all.
She even has gone so far as to try and stop me from seeing his son. But whatever she has done, hasn’t been working for her, because Mike has jus seemed to be ignoring the fact, that she doesn’t love him, anymore.
She doesn’t want me, seeing her son, anymore. And it’s making her more and more jealous, every time, I’ve come over to see his son. I have jus been able to feel this in my bones. And she’s trying to seek revenge against me for seeing her son, and not leaving him alone. But he doesn’t want me to leave him alone or stop seeing his son. He’s trying to bond with his son. So, I can be his mother, some day, and he wants a divorce from this other woman, because she jus hasn’t been showing him, any love, anymore.
BACKFLASH
A woman, Patricia, who Mike’s known most of his life, whom he had married after breaking up with me, had started going out with him, even before I ever knew him, I’ve happened to find out from him, now, that he’s, finally, admitted this to me.
Another thing, which, really, I don’t care about, anymore, is that this one woman, was a woman, who he’d has known better than me, he has loved her more than he ever has me. However, this is one thing, which, had I known about back in the past, would, really, have caused me much hurt inside, than I’m feeling, yet, over having broken up with Mike.
But one thing, which, really, irks me inside, has been that he never ever told me about this other woman in his life, when the two of us had been going, together, and then, had ended up getting married.
Now, I know that I shouldn’t get involved with Mike, ever again, because he, probably, is, still, married to this one woman, whom, I had found out from one of my sisters, he had gone ahead and married not long after I had broken up with him.
Another thing is that my sister had let me know, not long ago, that when he had married her, that he had no choice at that time, because he had given her, a son, and he didn’t want to spoil another marriage, either. However, I, also, have found out from my sisters, that he’s, still, married to this one gal. But this gal hadn’t cared about being knocked up with his baby, and hadn’t wanted him to have custody of her son.
She, then, wanted to become as distant as she could from him, jus so that she could run away with their son, jus because she didn’t want him, seeing her son, anymore. For one thing, jus because he never had found out jus where she had gone with their son, anyways, through one of my sisters, it was revealed to him. That this woman had run away because she thought, he didn’t love either her or his son, enough, to keep a relationship with him, any longer.
So, then, what happened with his relationship with his son, was that it had been fading away into the darkness. And he had tried very hard to get enough love back inside him to care for his son. However, he hasn’t forgotten jus how much he has loved his son, from the very moment; he found out that this other woman, had been pregnant with a baby boy.
One thing, which, really, has been irking him inside, is that jus because she hadn’t cared about being pregnant with a baby boy, she hadn’t wanted to have him as the baby’s father. He, still, had been drawn to his son, ever since; she had run away with his son. Because he had been drawn to her, jus because he has known her, a long time, he had gone so far as to drop me, and marry her, of all things, breaking my heart into pieces, which I haven’t been able to put back, together, again.
And she didn’t even want to see his face as long as he lived.
It, really, was his fault to begin with, that she had been with baby in the first place. So, this had been the end of his dreams with me, and caring for me, because he had, actually, hid from me, and another things was that I didn’t care to stay married to him, jus because I had this feeling for some time. That he had been seeing another woman. And although, I could feel it in my bones, I, really, dreaded that time, when he had took and left me for this other woman in his life.
And then, he had made that big mistake of marrying her, jus to try to keep custody of his son, keep her and his son and him one family, which didn’t work out at all in the long run.
I, then, had no choice, back then, eight years, but to enter into my world of loneliness, jus because the two of us were too young to understand, that a fast marriage, jus wasn’t going to work between us. Back then, we had never been in true love with each other, because neither of us could understand, what true love, really, was.
Then, this other woman in his life won the custody battle, and upon taking their son, she had taken off to the country to be as far away as she could from him.
All of my sisters including me have decided to go on this cruise on the Pacific Ocean, and are jus boarding the cruise ship for the cruise. I have made another attempt to try and get away from Mike, jus because I jus can’t seem to get rid of him over at the family cottage.
And you should have seen the look of his face, when I, recently, told him, that I don’t want to see him, anymore. He thought he had captured me back into his heart. But he found out the hard way, that even though, he had tried hard to win me back into his heart. That it hasn’t been working out for him, since, I’ve had my stay at the family.
And both of my sisters have agreed with me. That in having spent a month or two at the family cottage, jus brought all that past hurt back into my life. This was jus because one of my sisters, mistakenly, had offered him a job, there, at the cottage, not know that in him, working over at the family cottage. This has jus stirred up inside me all that love, which I used to feel for him, which is all stagnant at this time.
Besides I, still, think, although, he’s tried a few times, to get me to go with him to see his son, because he wanted to be a father to his son, again, his wife has jus despised him so much. She wouldn’t dare allow either I or him to step foot into her house, anymore.
All of us sisters were jus boarding the cruise ship along with me for the Pacific Cruise, jus because they were still, trying to help me get Mike out of my mind and shove him back into my past.
Although, I’ve broken up with him, again, because I, still, feel that I could be in deep love with him, it seems to be bothering me inside, that I can’t seem to stop thinking of him. However, all that hurt, which he has caused me all these years, has really, measured up to be quite a bit, along with not having gotten over breaking with my last boyfriend, yet, either. So, in having all this hurt inside me, hasn’t been helping my situation at all.
Though, in having been having to face Mike day in and day out over at the family cottage, really, has helped me in any way. All it has done is to make me, not want to face the fact, that I, really, still, love him with all my heart. All I want to do is to keep denying my love for Mike, because I’ve gotten the idea from him, that because he’s married this other woman. That she is the one, he loves, not me.
However, for some odd reason, I haven’t been able to figure out, is that I’ve, still, be drawn to him, and ever since, my stay at the family cottage, we have been sticking together like glue. Another thing is that the more I tried to avoid him, the more it seemed, that I’m attracted to him in the long run. Though, back in my past, he never married me for love, jus because he has had this other woman in his life.
The thing is that my last boyfriend, whose face, I haven’t seen for over a period of about six months, now, has taken off for another woman. At this time, I jus can’t seem to face all this hurt, which I’ve had in my heart from these last two guys in my life.
Another thing is that I’ve found out from my sisters, through them, having spied on Mike for me, is that back in my past, when my last boyfriend had found out, that he had fallen in love with another woman, she, already, had captured his heart at that time, when he and I first met.
So, I’m, still, feeling broken hearted after having lost Mike, a second time, although, he does, still, seemed to have been loving me without me not having been aware of it, until my stay at the family cottage. Although, I can feel it inside, that he wanted me in his heart, again, that I don’t want him, again, as a boyfriend, jus because of all that hurt, he’s brought back to me, during my stay over at the family cottage.
The thing is that ever since, I’ve left that cottage, all this anger has been creeping up inside me, making me, want him all the more. Until now, I haven’t realized that what I have, really, been doing is trying to cover up through being one stealthy spy, all the hurt, which I have been feeling over having lost him in the past.
And jus because I’ve refused to ever go back to that family cottage, until he’s done with repairs on the cottage, it has seemed like all that hurt has come back to me, again. The worst thing about it is that I can’t seem to shake myself away from all this hurt inside me, which is still haunting me like a ghost.
My sisters have both managed to talk me into going on this ocean cruise, because they both have claimed, that in being on this cruise. So, that, hopefully, in spending some time like a couple of weeks on the sea, will do a lot to get my mind off of Mike and my ex-boyfriend.
I’m feeling so hurt inside, that it’s been feeling like knife inside my heart. Hopefully, in being on the sea, will help me, forget, all I have gone through with these two guys in my past.
However, one thing, which neither I nor my sisters know upon boarding this cruise ship, is that jus as we’re all on our way to the top floor of the ship, that who does me, actually, run into is Mike. At first, as my sisters took their seats on the top floor, neither of them is aware, that I have jus bumped into Mike.
Right now, the two of us are jus standing, there, not far from where my two sisters are seated on the ship, and are, already, jabbering away to each other. All we’re doing is staring into each other eyes, like neither of us, are taking this as being some coincidence. This was because jus because of the expression of guilt on his face, he doesn’t have to tell me in many words, jus why he has planned to take this cruise, himself.
I can feel all this anger, starting to boil off some steam like a steam ship inside me. And at this time, both of us seem to be lost for words to say to each other. However, instead of taking our seats, right away, on the top near where my two sisters are seated, and having the time of their life, neither Mike nor I seem to be, though. At least, by the expression on Mike’s face, he sure doesn’t seem to be enjoying any of this surprise, any more than I am at this time.
Being he was the first one to speak; he said to me with a curious look on his face, “Well, I’ll be darn, Sarah, what has brought you and your sisters on this cruise, tonight? I’m aware that there is a full moon, tonight, and that I’m sure you and your sisters are going to be on this cruise, mostly, to have a good time. However, I’ve jus noticed, that you, actually, have enough tears, rolling down your cheeks, to fill up a bucket. Is something the matter at this time?”
“I don’t know why you’re asking me such a stupid question. Can’t you see that, suddenly, upon bumping into you, that I’m all broken up about this situation. How in the world, did you know, that me and my sisters were going to be on this cruise?”\
Trying to tell me, one big white lie, which I happened to be sensing at this time, he said, trying to have a surprised look on his face, “Believe me, Sarah, when I even was planning this cruise, I hadn’t the slightest idea that either you or your sisters were going to be on this cruise, tonight. So, what do you have to say about yourself?”
“What do you mean by that, now? Don’t you think, that I’m, really, feeling quite embarrassed in having gotten caught, standing here, while my sisters have been staring over this way? Don’t you dare to lie to me, and tell me, that you didn’t know that either I or my sisters were going to be on this cruise, tonight?”
After pausing a minute, I continued,” While you can before I even start getting carried away, and give you, one big punch in the face, for having, actually, confronted me on this cruise ship, tell me the whole truth, while you can. Because if you don’t come forward and tell me, exactly, why you happened to show up on this cruise, jus after we had broken up over at the family cottage, someone is going to wish he never lived.”
“Okay, then, since, you insist, you had broken up with me, but deep down inside, I knew, that you, still, are in love with me, this of us having met tonight on this cruise ship, is, certainly, no coincidence on my part. In fact, recently, jus after you took off from the family cottage, which had left me of all people with a broken heart, it jus so happened, that one of your sisters, Betsy, had stopped over at the family cottage, to see how the repairs are coming along.”
“Okay, now, why would she stop over there, when, jus lately, both her and my other sister never even made any phone call to me about this situation? Before I go any further, I think that I’d better take a seat over by my sisters before all of the seats are taken. And by the way, don’t you even think about following me over there, because I jus don’t want anything to do with you, anymore.”
So, as we were taking their seats on the top floor of the cruise ship, I, then, couldn’t believe how he had the nerve to grab a seat right beside me. And I thought he had planned it, this way, jus so he can get on my nerves during the whole cruise.
“Why have you gone out of your way, to pull this kind of seating arrangement on me and my sisters? I’m sure that none of my sisters want to see me, end up with a broken heart, again. I’ve been through enough with having you on my back during the whole doggone cruise. What you’re doing to me is making all the hurt; I’ve suffered from having a broken heart, all these years, and stir up again inside me.”
Then, neither of us said another word to each other, and neither did any of my sisters, seem to have something to say, because neither of them enjoyed see me, going through all this heartbreak, again. And all he’s done is to make me, end up in heartbreak hotel throughout the whole cruise. All he’s doing is aggravating me, further, to put more possible hurt in my heart.
What I’m thinking about is how can he have all these guts inside him, to get in my way, when he knew all along, he’s, only, getting in the way, instead of helping me, get out of all the troubles, he’s caused me all these years. Back then, I even had allowed him to talk me into a fast marriage, while offering me, a guarantee, that he wanted me to have babies with him. And this marriage had jus ended up not working out the way, which she had intended it to.
All I wanted was for him, to stay away from me. What ahs been going on between my sisters, is something else to consider, because both of them, probably, had been suspicious of Mike even when one of them had offered him, this job at the family cottage. Maybe, she even wanted me to get back, together, with Mike, hoping that everything would work out between us, this time, now that we were older and wiser.
So, my sister, apparently, had gotten the wrong idea, and is only making things, again, these old feelings pop up, again, from my past marriage with him. Or she may even have forgotten that the two of us ever have married in the first place. My sister must have leaked out to Mike that I loved him a lot, and still, do, when the opposite had been true right after us two had broken up during our marriage.
Although, I, finally, managed to give him, the idea, that I don’t want him, sitting near any of the family during any part of the cruise, he kept approaching me all during the cruise, making it harder for me to resist him. Though, I, still, might love him, I, still, wanted very badly for him, to stay away from me. All he’s doing by being around me is making life worse for me, and my heartbreak, staying in heartbreak motel.
At that one time, over at the cottage, I had left him; I had run away from him like a scared cat, hoping that things would become better in life, if I had. So, it’s like I can’t stand being near that guy, anymore, because al he’s doing is driving me crazy and wild like a tiger. He’s reminding me of all the hurt, I had suffered back when we were, supposedly, happily married, which had turned out to be just the opposite.
I had run away from him, jus because he had left me with the impression, that he hadn’t married me for love. That it had been, mostly, lust on his part, which had encouraged him to talk me into a fast marriage, jus because in having been knocked up at that time that everything would work out between us.
In the first place, I should never have given into him to begin with, when I, first, ran into him over at the family cottage. And if I hadn’t back then, eight years ago, I never would have been put through all that pain like a pain in the neck, I had suffered as a result to having been married to him, back then.
He hadn’t loved me enough back then, because when I had wanted to run away from him, he had another woman in his life, which I hadn’t found out about until the two of us had gotten married. This was what had caused me to want to flee from this marriage of ours, and had caused him to run away from me for that other woman. On top of all of this, then, I had ended up divorcing him.
Then, only, about six months ago, I had met this other guy at some bar in town, who I thought, had been the perfect boyfriend for me right from the start. However, then, right when we were ready to get engaged, at that time, he, then, had gone ahead, and had taken off from me when I thought, I loved him, causing me more heartache than I could possibly handle at that time.
Every time, I have happened to leave the top floor with my sisters, to go off into the middle of the ship, to have a drink or two, or jus to have some good fun, all he’s done, so far, is to follow me all over the place from one floor to another. What he’s doing to me is not giving me any peace at all to be alone with my sisters like near the pool. I haven’t had any chance with my sisters, yet, to be alone on the other deck of the ship, where the pool is at.
Every time, it seems when I jus want to be alone, and take a swim by myself, either my sisters have to go with me, or he happens to show up and bugs me the whole time, I’m over at the pool. All he’s doing is driving me crazy, and making me realize more and more, than he probably loves me more than he used to when I was staying at the family cottage for a couple of months.
And it seems that every time I want to go over to the bar with my sisters for a drink r two, that he has to be over there with me. All he’s been doing is bugging me to the point that I’m ready to say to him that this is the last straw, and that I never want to see his face, again, after this cruise is over with.
Where the bunks are located on the middle floor of the cruise ship, it jus happened that my sisters and I during the night, wanted to have some time alone away from all the other passengers. But who happens to always show up is Mike, and this is aggravating me to no end. All my sisters and I are trying to do to have some peace with ourselves, and I guess my sisters have managed to find some guys, to spend time with on the deck.
That he had to follow suit, and make sure that every waking moment has to be spent with me. Or else if he doesn’t, that then, he’ll go as far as to try to force an engagement or even trying to force me to sleep, together, with him at night. And the last thing, I wanted to happen was to wake up, one morning, and find him, sleeping in a bunk with me, although, a bunk bed is way too small for two people.
For one thing, Mike could have gotten himself a bunk to sleep in at night. But he has to aggravate me to no end in trying to crawl in bed with me at night, which I, already, have caught him, doing to me. I don’t know what he thinks he can accomplish by this. But the last thing, he’s going to get from me is any sex, because I don’t want anything to do with him.
One night, when I was sleeping in one of the bunks, and having some nice dreams, he, really, got to the point, where he couldn’t resist me. So, what he did to me was actually crawl into the bunk with me, not knowing how in the world he ever could have done it in the first place.
At first, when this happened, I thought, I was, only, dreaming of having him inside a bunk bed with me. But then, as I awoke in the middle of the morning, who did I find in bed with me of all people, my ex- boyfriend, who I, really, didn’t enjoy being in the bunk with me.
Any time, I caught him in the bunk, again, with me, I jus went ahead, and actually, became so pushy that he has fallen out of the bunk bed more once, and has actually ended up the floor, which I thought was real funny.
He’s gotten a sore back or butt more than once. So, you would think that this, alone, would convince him not to pull this on me, anymore. Even though, he knew that I’ve, already, told my sisters about these incidents. The good thing was that after a few times, of him, ending up with a sore back, he, finally, came to his senses, and gave up on me.
So, then, he made a confession to me, and in this confession, he vowed to me, that he won’t do this to me, anymore. However, it didn’t stop him from giving up on me and now, he can’t seem to put up with the situation, this has placed him in.
He followed me over to the bar like usual, one night, and he went as far as to offer to buy me a drink of beer. And for one thing, I couldn’t resist him doing this for me, although, I have detested his offers for buying me drinks, after I found out from my sisters. That he wanted to keep bearing down on me, jus how much he loves me and wants me back into his life. But I, still, don’t want anything to do with him, although, I am aware of having fallen for him, again, while I’ve been trying not to face that I have.
Then, he kept joining me over at the pool, whenever I jus wanted to be with my sisters near the pool, and lie down on one of the lounge chairs. I’m resenting him, sitting near me near the pool, jus because I can’t stand his possessive drinking habits, which is driving me crazy. For one thing, I can’t trust his drinking, because all he’s doing is trying to drive himself, drunk, every time, he drinks.
I have protested to him, several times, already, that I don’t want to see his face, anymore. And that I have had it up to my neck with him, jus because he won’t stay off of my back. And another thing is that he’s been trying to see how much time, he can spend with me, jus in trying to win me back into his life.
So, the next thing, I happened to find out from one of my sisters, is that what he’s doing at night, is making me jealous, jus because he’s been trying to crawl in bed with one of my sisters, now. And from what I’ve heard from her, is that she doesn’t want him doing this to her, because she doesn’t want anything to do with him after what he has pulled on me all this time.
He’s making her, jealous, too trying to crawl in bed with her, jus so that he’ll hope, she gives into him, what is the last thing; she wants to happen to her. But then, the next thing, I found happening, is that I found myself, actually, begging him to crawl in bed with me. This happened because now I have been thinking that I love him a lot, and can’t seem to resist him, anymore.
Being he won’t stop chasing me, I started to offer to buy a drink or two for him, and in doing so, jus hoped, that this would leave him, satisfied, in all ways. So, that, hopefully, he won’t keep driving me crazy for his love.
But in the long run, it jus seemed to work out that way. And all he’s doing is going after me, no matter what I try to do to make him, back off of me. But in the long run, it did end up satisfying him whenever he had a drink or two or more. So, then, he drove me to admit to him, that I loved him a lot, and can’t do without him, anymore, for another day or another night.
Then, I went as far as to allow him to sleep in the bunk with me, although, it was a little small for two of us. Although, it’s kind of crowded arrangements, I then, pleaded with him to sleep with me every night after that during the whole cruise. And I didn’t even want any sex from him, which he didn’t seem to like very well.
And during the rest of the cruise, it seemed to me, that the two of us, really, were starting to have some kind of romance, budding between us. So, he jus kept working on chasing after me and trying to get me under his skin.
Ending:
After the cruise was over with, the very day on which the two of us along with my sisters, reached North Carolina on the Pacific Ocean, all of my sisters kept trying to convince me, that I must win him over, especially, as we, finally, reached North Carolina.
Then, he, really, surprised me, jus as we all were about to get off of the cruise ship. What he, actually, did was, to, finally, after all this time on the cruise, and after what he put me through all this time, in chasing after me from the time, I stayed over at the family cottage, was make a proposal of marriage.
And to my amazement, I found myself, accepting his proposal, jus because I have gotten to the point, where I jus can’t resist him, anymore, and have, finally, realized, that I wanted him for the rest of my life. What, really, happened to the two of us, was that some minister, who happened to be on the cruise with us, met with us on the bottom floor of the ship along with my two sisters. And doing the whole quickie marriage ceremony, they, really, had looks of delight and surprise on their faces, as the minister, actually, married the two of us on the main deck.
The two of us, Mike and I, really, didn’t have much of a reception, but, still, some one like the bar owner was nice enough to make a wedding cake for us. And my sisters both joined in along with me and Mike for the toast for love and happiness for Mike and me. And Mike even gave me, a small piece of the cake through shoving it into my mouth, which got a lot of laughter from my sisters, and anyone who, actually, wanted to stay jus to see Mike and I get married for the second time.
After the cruise ship reached the docks in North Carolina, after the wedding ceremony, it so happened that Mike and I decided on moving into a house, which one of my friends sold to us, a nice long cabin. It was a big one at that, with a big porch on the second floor overlooking the mountains.
What ended up to be the most joyful part, was that as Mike and I and my sisters were getting off of the cruise ship, who should up at the ship, was Mike’s wife, who he had thought all along didn’t love him. Then, she jus left her son with me and Mike, because she had jus lost custody of him, which she told me about before she took off.
After she took off, my son had tears of happiness in his eyes to see both me and Mike, again. And the three of us were reunited, and bonded into one happy family.
Through my minister friend, Mike and I had, at the last minute, found out, that his son, almost, ended up in a foster home. However, because his former wife had to have given up the child to us, jus because in court, she had been pronounced unfit to care for the boy, this had caused the custody of Mike’s son to end up in our favor.
In his past, once, Mike had come to the point, when he had broken up with his former wife, that he had been unfit to have custody of his son. But the minister had made everything turn out right for Mike and me. So, then, the two of us were able to be one family, and live together and support this distant son of us, who wasn’t distant, anymore.
Even though, back then, Mike hadn’t been a loving father to his son, which statement, his wife had tried to prove was right, the minister had for us through a lawyer, proved her to be wrong. And that was why the boy, now, belongs to Mike and me, permanently.
Through a court session, which he and I had to go through after getting married, he was able to prove that the two of us could provide all the love and care for his son, and to be able to bring him up in a loving family for the rest of his life.
Being that my two sisters decided to move down the street in a cabin not far from Mike and I, then, the two of them were able to take time from their jobs to look after Mike’s and my son, whenever we decided to go out somewhere.
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